I am a firm believer that some people are just better left as friends….. Maybe i'm using “friends” loosely... maybe some people are just better apart. My daughters dad for instance, i don't even what i saw in him romantically! Occasionally a friend or coworker will ask me, “Do you miss your ex?” Or “ever wish you guys were still together?” My answer is the same every single time FUCK NO. Not just a normal FUCK NO but a dramatic FUUUUCK NAAHHHH as im shaking my head. I'm not saying he’s a horrible person, in fact he’s funny, the right amount of nerd and he’s a great father. He was just a shitty ass boyfriend that made me feel like I was never good enough. He gave me an amazing kid and a friend in his wife that’s a hell of a lot more i can say for my past fuck boyfriends. Friends will also ask occasionally “do you think he’s faithful to her?” i can honestly say that never crosses my mind and so my proud response is “ That’s none of my business!” or “he is no longer my problem so i no longer give any fucks!”.
Then i have “Zemora” I have known him since 9th or 10th grade and he was just that cute cool kid I occasionally hung out with in school or at lunch. We lost touch after his disappearance before graduation. We got in touch about 7 years ago on facebook and began a romantic correspondence via cell phone. One thing led to another and I hopped my ass on a plane to North Carolina to visit him. After the sex, things were just...different. I'm not sure if it was because the sex was trash or because we were both just lonely and did not fill that void with one another or he was just mentally unstable (later found out that's what it was). Needless to say, I spent another 4 miserable days in North Carolina and was mentally exhausted by the time i left for the airport. “Zemora” and I have kept in touch and go over the last few years until last December i reached out to him after a concerning Instagram post. He wanted to rekindle a flame that is buried under 2 miles of arctic ice and I wanted nothing to do with him romantically. He finally caught on to my no so subtle rejections and realized we are just better as friends.
Finally there's Michael. I am no longer friends with Michael, but I made the stupid mistake of dating him at 19, realizing we are better as friends, THEN attempted to date again at 24. Michael and I are no longer friends because he lied about having a girlfriend. I wish to see him one day and rekindle our friendship he was a great friend and I miss that most about him. I believe people come and go out of your life for a reason, just because 2 people aren’t meant to be together doesn't mean they aren't meant to become friends.